TO THE GUY WHO BROKE MY HEART

TO THE GUY WHO BROKE MY HEART:

I wish you nothing but the best. I hold no grudge against you. Despite being hurt and crying myself to sleep every night since then.

Here I am, typing all the pain away, hitting the letters of the keyboard like a maniac. Remembering what's left and trying to compile every memory in a chest located at the very center of my heart, where it will be locked forever.

You were once my happy pill, my reason for everything; the apple of my eye, peanut butter to my jelly, cherry on top of my ice cream.

You meant the whole world to me. You had already completed my day even if it has just started. The reason why I smile. The person who filled the gaps of my fragile heart. You were the missing piece that completed the puzzle. The rainbow after the rain. You put the colors to my colorless life. But unfortunately, the crayons you used were washable.

You taught me so much. I've matured and grown a lot. I owe it all to you so thank you.

I still wish tomorrow would be better than today. And that everything would eventually turn out okay. But I'm in no hurry. I know I'd get there... someday.

From: The girl with a broken heart

The girl with a broken heart part 2

I can't believe I am writing my second entry of "the girl with a broken heart". I had no idea there will be a part two to all this drama.

Honestly, I did not imagine myself in this; having all these problems to deal with. Most especially: mending a broken heart. Oh yes, it is broken; shattered, ripped, destroyed, crumbled into a million-gazillion pieces and thrown into the sea so that no one could ever put it back together. Uh-huh, that's how broken I am right now. In fact, broken is an understatement.

And here I am again, rambling, telling the whole world about my heartaches and disappointments in life--like anyone actually cares. I just feel I need to let this all out... again. And where is the better place to scream it all out than in my very small space in the cyber universe. At least here I feel safe; safe that no one would judge me. For this. For all the stupidity.

Rant, rant, rant. And it goes on and on. But in the end, I'm still broken. My emotions were crushed. I feel like a zombie. I feel nothing.

I still hope and pray that one day, I'd wake up totally fresh and no longer remembering any of this shiz ever happened. I wish to wake up as a new person, free of worries and ready to take on the world again. I want to start anew. Can't I just go back to the starting line and do everything all over again? Promise, this time I'll be wiser. :(

From a girl with a broken heart

This past week has been physically, mentally, and emotionally tiring; it felt like I rode a roller coaster to another planet. No joke.

Anyway, I just want to scream my lungs out, pound on a desk, and cry like a baby... but I can't. So here I am letting all the emotions out through my small virtual space in the place called cyberspace.

I have a lot of questions in mind: why do we need to lose certain battles, why are some people just plain stupid when it comes to love, why do we get hurt? Yes, cheesy stuff we have here.

I don't know, it's like an asteroid hit me and now, I'm just a mess. Come and help throw me out into the garbage!

I want to say sooo many things to someone right now but I don't know how. All communication means have been cut and I end up being a sore loser, shattered, waiting for that person to come back and put all the pieces back together like nothing happened. But then, you can't erase nor hide all the scars that reminds all the pain.

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I don't know anything. This is just... sad. One of those days. </3